This is me

I've tried the blogging thing years ago. I'm a faithful old fashioned journal writer, and a mom, and there is nothing I can't stand more than repeating myself. I felt that if I was blogging, I couldn't journal and vice versa. I have a different outlook this time. 

So, this is me. Barb, wife of a husband for almost 19 years!!  I'm a mom of 7, 2 boys and 5 girls. I am a knitter, crocheter, but sometimes just call myself a Fiber artist. I'm an entrepreneur. I'm a good friend, faithful in many ways, devoted. I have bipolar. I'm a survivor. A warrior. 

 I suffered extreme trauma growing up. I was one of the lucky ones. I survived. I was also diagnosed early with my bipolar so I was able to be treated properly with the right medications (not all the time but I'll talk about that later). Most people with bipolar walk around misdiagnosed most of their life. Taking the wrong meds, in and out of inpatient. I was one of the lucky ones. 

But this is only a piece of me. It's important to understand where I've been to get where I'm going, and the journey to get there. It's all a process. I long to be one of those people who sail through life with not a care, enjoying every moment, not hanging on things I can't control. But that's not my reality. It's ok. I make my life, and I decide to be the driver and not just a passenger.   I decide. 
 

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